my thoughts in words

I’m sorry, but I’m done with this. I’ve been disapointed too many times in my life. I’m usually all about taking chanses but I’ve had enough. I always tryin to see the good in all people and what do I get back? NOTHING. I don’t need this. I’m worthy more respect then this. You said you call but you didn’t. I would be very rich if i’ve got a penny for every time that happened. One thing that I don’t get is that it is always you who wants to meet me and all. You give me dubble message here. I’m sorry but i can’t do this no more. I want soething real, this isn’t good enough. I want magic and kisses and suprises. I want to laugh and feel appreciated. I want everything that comes with real love. But all i’ve felt is sad and lonely and worthless and small. I really don’t understand how someone can hurt someone so much as you hurt me and don’t even care. For over a year…. A YEAR… how is that possible?

Just so everyone knows what I’m talking about, it is two boys. One that I’ve been having strong feelings for in over a year and that has crushed my heart at the same time as he have givin me hope and then crushin me again. And then this other boy that i’ve just started dating. I really thought he was different or i still do. But I have discovered that i’ve had wrong before. And i won’t go trough with that again. So i say no no no the first time i get disapointed instead of waiting a year.